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Sunday, January 18, 2009

My friend

To: My friend

I feel like crying now, but I have noone to turn to. Suhaimi is tired to listen to me. I just want to say sorry to a friend of mine, that I'm sorry that I'm hiding things from you because I don't want to hurt you deep and I'm not the right person to break the news to you. It's not that I don't want to tell you and keep you in the dark, I just don't know how to start. If you're reading this, I'm sorry my dear friend. Forgive me and please know that I love every single of you, from the rock bottom of my heart. I'll do anything to keep everyone together.

Sincerely,
Chel

Journal @ 1/18/2009 02:33:00 AM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

separation

It's just the first month of the Ox year and I've witnessed many separations. Be it friendship or BGR, whichever one it is, it's certainly not nice at all. I know I may sound stupid to rant here in blogspot rather than doing something about it, but I can't help it. Whenever it comes to such situation, I prefer not to intrude but just listen. I am deeply sorry to know the news so late yet couldn't do anything to salvage or make anyone feel better.

It's a shame that it had to be this way. Neither way I can breathe. But everything we've been through, everything it's all about US, all of us. Sometimes I feel alive in school, but I'm losing all the drive we've once had together. The rides, the singing, the exploring new places and the manys we've did together. Cause everything I've been through includes every single one of us in my tertiary life. Do you know that, noone can ever replace any single of you, even if I met any new friends? I should just take this as a time-off period. I believe we'll all get better in time like what Leona Lewis said so. Maybe we're better off this way? Idk? I just felt, lost all of a sudden. Don't ask me about anything. Period.

You know what, I start to realise humans tend to be hypocrite. You told me you dislike that person to the core and next thing I see, you're out with that person having the time of your life. Well, thanks huh. I might silently get backstabbed when you're with her. I should just draw a line, nah you stand there, don't try to cross over. You hyps are so , one word- eww.

EMRS is TIRING. I don't understand how come the previous batches can be so relax and care-free playing DOTA and etc. My pimples are accumulating man, thanks to EMRS.

Journal @ 1/17/2009 01:30:00 AM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Finally an update!

This post is going to be wordy, not interested, skip it. Care? Read patiently. HAHA!

Livejournal is being a biatch on my bro's laptop so why not use blogger for now?

Events Management & Roadshow(EMRS) has officially started on 9th Dec and I was at a lost on the very 1st day cause I have no clue that school's open on the briefing day itself. And I tell you, EMRS is a living hell especially for team 1 and unluckily, the admin team, and ofcourse unfortunately for me. Everyday there must be something for you to do. My team members commented that I'm not relaxed enough. How to relax when there so much to do but so little time?

Christmas Mini Roadshow is up on next Wed & Thurs 10:30am to 3.30pm at North Canteen of NYP. My team and I are selling IT accesories for Fusion at a relatively lower prices than other stores outside of NYP. So if you guys need some thumbdrives, hard disk, adorable colorful earpieces and whatsoever that's related to IT, come down and get those cheap thrills! Not THAT cheap but at least it's cheaper than the outside? LOL. Sadly, Mini roadshow is held when almost everyone is having their 1st week of holidays. I'm worried that we might not be able to hit our sales target. But, what to do?

Other than this, conflicts and misunderstandings have been circulating around us and I feel so suffocated at times. If you're gonna show your I-don't-care attitude, it's as good as saying/showing you have no sense of belonging and it's OK that such things are happening and you're not showing any concern when people like me am not suppose to be involved and yet we cared. Additionally, it's selfishness that you're potraying, cause you only think for yourself and everything evolves around you only. It doesnt matter to you that everyone is upset, cause you happy can already.It's best if all of us cleared it once and for all rather than escaping from the reality that there IS a problem laying there untouched. My words might be harsh and you may not like it now that you're reading, but this is the fact, live with it.

I am f tired everyday after EMRS and this is only the 4th day man. How to survive? I'm going to quit F21 job. I hate myself for not enduring but it's really f tiring. I'm not like any O'level grads who are so free to work and have their bestest life at the same time. I'm a f poly student, f stress now and have no bloody life. I cannot cope both work and studies together. Sat and Sun is the only 2 days I can rest at home all I want. I have no time for friends, I have no time for family and Suhaimi. I'm quiting F21 for few impt reasons, tiring for me and more time with friends and S before I go Germany provided if I'm still going. LOL.

My moodswing has been horrible for the past few days. Poor Suhaimi has to tolerate my nonsensical rants and screams over the phone. It has been hard on you syg. Want to kajiao me? Kajiao me after my mensy is over. Hahaha!

p/s: QingDa is rushing me to hand in my application form.

Journal @ 12/13/2008 02:14:00 AM

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Switched!

Actually, to be honest, really honest, i've already switched to livejournal for some reasons.
Reasons like, I need some personal space for myself to vent my frustration into words and not hurting anyone and livejournal allows me to do so as they offer private (JustMe) entries.
Secondly, there are some things that I find confidential and thought it might be better that I only share it with my friends.

Next reason, I find blogspot too open for the public, anyone could just exercise their freedom of speech on my tagboard. Shameful to say, some hate taggers had actually manage to find their way to my Livejournal already. Bad, very very bad. So, if one day you find yourself unable to read my lj, blame it on them. Lol! In short, it all counts on my mood whether ornot to private my journal looking and considering the response towards my entries.

For now, I'll just bumble around both LJ and blogspot as and when I feel like to. Kinda chastised myself for leaving blogspot when I could have spend longer time with it cause I've build some strong feelings for Blogspot already. Awwww. Sometimes I find myself really fickle minded. Used to say I wouldnt put on make-up, in the end (light one!)? Tsk! Said that I'll be loyal to blogspot, look what now?! Well done Rachel! You were shite!

So, you guys are still able to read up on me and catch up by going to the following link

http://duperach.livejournal.com/

If I'm not happy with the responses from you many readers/ hate taggers. I might just private the whole journal once and for all. Only livejournal users could read, to be specific, my friends only. :D

To summarize everything and my hols!

• Been reliefing Canberra Primary for quite some time.
• Swimming for the past week alone and with my dear Yingxiu in Benny's condo.
• Annoyed with a seller because she sold my boots away when I've already transfered her the $$. Gave me reason like first pay first serve basis. Bloody write there Pending lah since someone has already reserved it!
• Made many new strangers!
• Out with so many weird people!
• Hate September! I swear!
• Involved in really awkward situations (Hate them!)
• Still rotting away at home
• Fasted for 7 days all in all!

YAYY!

Journal @ 9/21/2008 08:58:00 PM

Friday, September 5, 2008

Arab!

[Mood- Bloated]
[Music-Sundial Dreams]


Out with them is fun fun funnnnnnn! This whole week I hid myself at home and slept till 3-4pm everyday. I wonder when am I going out soon and working. I hid myself at home long enough already.

Hopefully next week is a much much betetr week! Wed out with the bitchayyyys! So long since I last met them.

Going out for a jog soon with my brother. Yayyyy!

Journal @ 9/05/2008 08:15:00 PM

Thursday, September 4, 2008

lj acct

[Mood- Amused]
[Music-Hear our praises]

I am actually that bored to create an lj account, and I tell you, it's tedious and hard to manage and very very complicated. I only realise till now that I'm the only survivor in blogspot among all my poly friends. I create that account for 2 reasons, so that I can catch up with my friends and read up their locked posts! and also to my advantage of writing private posts since blogspot doesnt allow me to do so and only my friends could read them.

I'll still continue blogspot until I'm very familar with lj and I need help from Sndy, Dingli, Shermin or Juanru I guess. Benny is out cause he used to ask for help from Sndy too. Aiya I'm a sucker for computer-related stuffs lah.

For now/future, www.duperach.livejournal.com

(edited 4:04am)

I suddenly remember something really important and I thought it might be wise for me to pen this down before I forget about it.

A week ago I had this conversation with S,

S: You know actually I have alot of things to tell you and to do,

but if tell you like what like that.

Me: What iszit?

Me: Aiya, you better don't tell me,

sekarli you never do I'll only get disappointment in the end.

Better keep it to yourself lah.

Now that I recall back, I think I'm quite crude towards him but you know, that's the fact and truth, and truth hurts, painful. Whenever he/she promises you with certain things,anticipation grows and next you realise he/she is unable to do that that specific thing he promised to, disappointment isn't it?
When you get to know, you'll have higher expectations from he/she which return you with higher rate of disappointment.So conclusion is, don't wait for suprises to come, it's easier said than done. Do something about it.

Clique's going out for some hangout in the evening and I'm going to give it a miss cause I'm having dinner with Love and Dan&Shah. Can't wait to lay my hands on those foods later on, and ofcourse maybe some sheesha fun and catching up with them!

p/s: High school Musical 2 played out on me when I watched 3/4 of the show.

Journal @ 9/04/2008 02:45:00 AM

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

For the record?

[Mood- sad]
[Music-Pussycat Dolls: When I grow up]

I need to find someone, this right person, this eligible man who can make me a better person from who I really am. Is he the one?

Or am I that person to make him a better person from who he really is. Am I eligible to take up that responsible and accountable for my actions?

That sets me thinking, am I making him a better person than before? a happier person?
Makes you work your brain or heart much hur?

Great, I'm still not sleeping yet. I said I want to lead a healthier lifestyle look what I'm doing right now at 4:21am. Frigging blogging at this late hour. I think I'm some kind of crazy owl, active only in the night, woo, wrong term, active! Hahahahaha! But I make good use out of my night by watching online movies alright. Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Wild Child and now Heavy petting. Let me explain, it's not some kind of porn movie,I'm not that sick watching porn alone at home in my tiny room all by myself in addition, late hour. That doesn't mean I watch porn in the day btw , urgh, why am I even here defending myself now?! It's just some dog show comedy lah, don't get me wrong here.

No work this week makes me such a looney. I need something to get me occupied, or maybe someone? But he's just too busy with schoolwork and exams. I don't want to interrupt his blissful life. I need................................................ him. Drag! Why am I sucha loser when it comes to him?! For goodness sake! Wake up Rachel! Yoooo Huuuuuuu! Knocks!

Ohkay bye now! Run along!

Journal @ 9/03/2008 04:14:00 AM